\\Anger

Dear Friend,

Due to a disagreement I had with a dear friend today, I lashed out my anger upon her and I am sure she is hurt deeply. While contemplating upon it, I discovered how strange and complex anger is in the first place. Have you ever sat down and actually thought about anger without being angry?

One very wise man did, and this is what he had to say:

"There is that speaketh like the piercings of the sword: but the tongue of the wise is health." -Proverbs 12:18 (KJV)

I believe that we as people fly into a rage and in consequence, become oblivious in the process. We spit out deleterious things hoping to absolutely and ruthlessly vanquish our "opponent". We don't actually feel the abrogating effects that it creates upon ourselves until much later, and most times, ironically, the person in need of an apology is most likely not there with you.

Anger is a dangerous drug which gives immediate satisfaction, but leaves us in agonizing pain after it leaves our system. The worse part of it all is that it is not a physical pain that can be cured; it is a mental hardship, which makes it seem ten times worse.

The best quote I have heard on the subject of anger is simple, but true.

"Anger is one letter short of danger." -Unknown

Picture your anger as a flame: burning bright, it increases with fuel. Only you can put it out by refusing to add to it, but, with every word uttered, it grows and grows. Sometimes, we keep our anger deep inside, like a candle wick that glows red for what seems an eternity, but doesn't seem to quite sputter out.

God is the answer. How silly it would be to think that God couldn't possibly "handle" our problems! As if our experience has never happened before in the history of the universe! How selfish we as humans can be...

What needs to be done is a sincere act of apology, no matter how "right" and "justified" you are. After that apology, you can breathe easier, making it effortless to blow out that flame.

That is what I need to do at this moment. I pray to God that hopefully, my friend will understand my love for her and we can walk together down life's lane again in peace.

I hope my rambling makes sense to anyone out there willing to read this.

"May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you, and be gracious to you. May the Lord lift up His countenance upon you, and give you peace."

Ever yours,

Fantasma